Uninspired

I’m feeling uninspired.

Again, I must complain about today’s youth — I spent an entire day trying to inspire our future.

I’m exhausted. It feels near impossible.

I have no idea whether our generation was just as bad. I know I did my share of mouthing off — but my complaint was that I’d rather be reading Shakespeared than a textbook, not …

I’d rather be shooting people on a video game and I hate reading or learning or anything that has to do with either.

What is to become of us?

My generation, I beseech you. Raise your children differently. Read aloud to them. Take them on walks. Teach them to explore and think for themselves.

Sometimes I worry that people in my school might read my blog and I’d get in trouble for it.

But after a few weeks with these kids, I realize I could post it on my whiteboard and share it with each of my classes to read it everyday.

I’d be completely free from worry.

I’m completely safe there.

So I’ll just write from my desk at night — and during the days, I’ll take pleasure in the irony.

It’s a pleasure short-lived though, looking at the contemporaries of my daughters. Will there be any match for my daughters in the world? It looks like slim-pickings. We’ve raised them so differently. Will they be lonely? Oh well. So what. We’ve just got to do our part and hope for the best.

But I worry when I teach. I worry a lot.

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7 Comments

  1. I often worry about this generation as well. What went so wrong in their upbringing that made them this complacent? However, there are those wonderful moments with students that make you rethink it all. You know those moments because I am sure you have had them. Maybe it was a student inspired to work just one day because you made an effort everyday to talk to them. Maybe the lessons we are supposed to teach this generation are not so much about history, Spanish or whatever but instead about how instant decisions can make long-term impacts. I think you will not have to worry about finding good men for your girls because I know there are enough of us out there bucking the system to have created those special boys for them. God will provide whatever we cannot. And maybe right there is the answer to it all. Parents have been busy trying to provide everyTHING for their kids without providing them anything important.

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    1. There are those moments that, if they aren’t wonderful, they’re revealing. A few of my students let their defensive masks slip a little. They often go through so much at home — awful things sometimes. I should be sensitive to that. Love them enough to call them on their crap, but remember to love when they’re being good too. And expect the best out of them. Thank you I feel inspired!

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  2. This generation? Come on. The 60’s was drugs. The 70’s was unprotected sex. The 80’s was extravagence and self indulgant. The 90’s was slacker. Each generation has brought forth something negative. Drug addiction, aids and unwanted pregnancy, deficits and recessions, entitlement and rudeness. We are no different than every other generation before as a whole. Especially when looking at generalities. In each of these generations there have those who have inspired and have been inspired as well. We have many amazing medical miracles, ways to communicate with our family, friends and have our voices heard almost immediately (your blog, for axample). Microwaves, ipods, condoms, breast awareness checks even knowing that tobacco is bad for us and organic food is better. All this has come through the insprite of the “bad” of past generations because there is good as well. Don’t throw out the baby with the bath water, and you may have more “babies” in your class than you can see right now. You know you can inspire by being true to you and not judging them. Remember, they know when you do not truly care about them and NO one ever wanted to be “better” if the one asking them to be better didn’t see it first and believe it more than they did. I get what you are saying Danielle ( don’t get me wrong ) but I think that is a HUGE problem with so many teachers of youth. You are inspiring, you just may not realize what your are teaching. It may not be spanish at all. There is more than being book smart to create a better human. Also don’t think they don’t notice the same things you do, just because they have different ways of expressing it or spending their freetime. Just my opinion. One last thing to think about. Most parents feel their children are amazing- even the children you feel are not up to your standards. Again, I get what you are saying, but remember their are many children that are intelligent and smart and your girls will be drawn to likeminded. If their equals do not exist, they will be translated. But for now, we all are learning (oh yes, especially me). 🙂

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    1. Good points, Brandee. Love is the beginning for all good things — love them as I want the teachers to love my children. See my students as moving into their potential. And stay true to myself.

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  3. HI D:

    Some of the things that you are being honest about here in your blog are bound to be contraversial and I think you are brave to speak your mind, and get some dialog going about how things could change. Because I know you so well, I know that it is not the children that leave you uninspired, but the system that has stolen their God-given gift of a love of learning. And I know that when you speak of the nourishing moments in your own homeschool, you are not praising your own children at the expense of the schooled kids, you are really saying EVERYONE should/could learn like this!!!! You are saying there needs to be a different way. I think that the burden of inspiring, changing lives, giving all you’ve got, making the difference, these slogans that new teachers internalize in their teacher preparation programs set us up for disappointment, burn out, bitterness and fatigue when the reality is that a teacher’s work is never done, but goes on into the evening, days off, during vacation, weekends. And that what reward their could be, in the small successes of individual children is stamped out by endless record keeping, and other bureaucratic annoyances that actually KEEP TEACHERS FROM TEACHING! And that while in our naivity we plan exciting lessons, units, and creatively try to differentiate our classrooms, accomodate multiple intelligences, we meet in the faces of these children UNMET NEED IN PROPORTIONS NOT SEEN in years past. LIteracy continues to decline, scrips for psych meds go up, so do alcahol, drugs, and rampant promiscuity. These may not be new, but they are pandemic in our society and are getting worse. Teachers are under continual unending pressure to respond to all of these circumstances, and to perform in an environment where it is almost impossible to succeed. I agree that we need to minister where ever we are, and do our best, and plant a seed, where someone else may water, but I also think that caring doesn’t mean teaching with blinders on, or tolerating disrespect, or a child’s indifference to their own education, because if a child is indifferent, or even hostile to their own learning, then their childhood itself has been robbed of its essence. So, keep writing, for the children’s sake.

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